Life had become something I did not want anymore

Or maybe I should re-word that…

A life like this had become something I did not want anymore.

I thought I didn’t want to live anymore

I had stopped eating, sleeping and most importantly just stopped feeling anything

I felt empty.

I’m going to be 21 years of age and I have nothing to show for it?

Except constant pain, heartbreak and confusion

I struggled as I tried to walk on.

A struggle that combined the pain of all of the struggles I had endured

I kept tripping, falling and collapsing every day

It felt like trying to fix wood together with a glue stick.

Disorder after disorder…

No ducks in a row…

And if life was a video game,

I’d have quit by now, thrown the game away and never looked back.

But a life like this I did not want anymore,

I wanted the universe, the galaxies, the stars, the moon, the sun,

I just wanted to live a life worth living.

Surely if I survived 21 years of a life like this,

I could do more than survive 21 years of a life that I dreamed of,

I didn’t realise this whole time the universe was calling for me. The concept was so unknown to me that I pressed decline this entire time.

Your lips are home to the words you keep so sheltered,

I press mine against yours in hope they might escape

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It was wrong from the minute you laid eyes on me,

Your intention was not to just be friends.

But you knew you belonged to someone else,

You knew she would always be in your life.

I was wrong to let your vision become a reality,

The vision you saw never included me in your family.

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A calm settles in my mind

As I come to terms with you not being mine